Gekluo<3

2010-08-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

Suddenly got the feeling every living thing around is all against me .
I had no one to turn to .
I am writing this post while crying , stupid me .
Today , nothing much happened during the morning .
In the afternoon after tuition ,i met up with LiuQian at the kfc to study and had lunch together .
Around 6plus , we went took a bus to marina square as LiuQian wanted to shop at Zara so badly but i wanted to study so badly . Reached there at about 7plus .
Went many different shops to look for nicenice clothings .
But all the prices of the clothes ,none of them i could afford .
I realised at that moment , what a loser i am .
Everytime have the money to do so many things .
But when it comes to shopping , i know nothing .
When we were shopping , i kept thinking how ugly i was .
I couldn't afford anything nice at these shops .
It means i cannot wear nice clothes when i go out with baby .
I am such a loser .
While shopping , i message baby that i will webcam with him during the night .
But before i board the bus to go home , MY PHONE DIE ON ME !
This is not the only worse thing ! i even board the wrong side of the bus .
The bus went all the where to somewhere else which i dont know!
Then both of us waited for the next bus .
Reached home about 11.10pm ?
On my computer and the first thing i wanted to do so badly was to online .
I want to talk to my baby and webcam with him !
But instead, when i online , i saw his msn nick was different before i left my house in the afternoon .
I was kinda shocked at first ,but i slowly realise that something was wrong .
Tired talking to him in msn ,but he didn't reply me .
So i gave him a call and the first thing from him was , what ?(mono tone)
Knowing what was wrong and everything .
We quarrelled and eventually , i was angry and moodless to do anything when i am supposed to bathe .
My mummy kept asking me to bathe but the only thing i want to do at that moemnt was to talk to him .
Until finally , don't remember what was it , i just got up and went to bathe .
Going to the bathroom , i called my mummy but she didn't respond .
Went to the back of the house to call her ,in front of me ,still dont want to respond .
So i asked her what's wrong and why is she ignoring me ?
She straight away shut me off by saying that is because i don't listen to her .
FISH .
At that moment , everything seems to be against me .
I went to the batheroom , told myself stop being sad and dont cry .
Stupid to talk to myself , but still end up crying in the bathroom .
Finsh bathing, i went back to my room to continue talking to my baby .
After 2 messages , he didn't reply me anymore .
I was cool at first because i dont always expect him to reply me fast , i am willing to wait .
But again , i find something is a miss .
Decided to give him a call , finding out that he was actually not doing anything .
Don't know why , suddenly ever thing that is in my heart came pouring out .
This made me cried and him angry at himself ...
Sorry ...

2009-10-14T06:44:00.000-07:00

Not suppose to be blogging till olvl is over .
But there's somethings I just want to say it out right here ,
as people are asking me how's person doing ? ; where is person ?
(person = someone)
Maybe some friends understand what i had been through and how i felt .
And i believe some may think that i am the one who cause person to be like this now .
All i wish to say here now is ,
i don't know anything .
How am i suppose to know anything about person when there is a gap between us right now ?
Yes , i might know some information about person but do you think i am even fit to be the right person whom you asking ?
Many things had happened between us ,
but sometimes ,
somethings are better not to be said .
Even though on the outside ,
we may look like friends .
How about the inside ?
What are we ?
I have been always asking myself this ,
Am i doing the right thing for person ?
Did i do something wrong ?
Why must person do this to me ?
Is this what person really wanted ?
Are things suppose to be like this right now ?
But now ,
the question i asking myself ,
what is bestfriend ?

2009-09-03T04:43:00.000-07:00

bloody dumb of me .
look at this ,
FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE .

2009-08-31T04:17:00.000-07:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers that had taught me everything i know that is inside my small brain right now:D

after sport carnival ,
went to meet up with bbf and cousin for breakfast at macdonals !
after that we wanted to cabbed back to aps but on the way ,
we met sylvia and went back together !
saw many many many things ,
and many many many shocking things ,
and and and make me totally cannot believe anything .
Many of us may have changed into another person ,
but we are still primary schoolmates:D !
Kinda of think back about the days in primary school ,
I don't know that I am used to be so childish back then and never knew onces what is the meaning of childish .

I don't know should i write this or not because i may have the wrong idea after reading your blog as your blog din mention who is it to .
I am really sad that you told me that you want to leave me .
But i asked again ,
is that really what you want right now ?
And your answer was yes .
The next mintue i knew that you are going to leave me forever .
You deleted me from msn ,
you stop messaging me ,
you stop calling me ,
and you stop everything that is related to me.
Is this the end of everything because of two words ?
When the day we are together ,
you told me that you won't be like my other ex-boyfriends ,
you will treat me better than they did ,
you will always be there for me when i need you ,
you will never doubt me for any mintue about anything .
Though sometime we quarrelled about small little things or misunderstanding ,
we still love each other .
I always tell you negative things about myself ,
you always told me to be who i am because you will love me for who i am and not another person just because of you .
I really can't understand why you wanted to leave me .
I really dont want you to leave me .
I really want you to call me as and when you like even if i am busy or not .
I really want you to keep repeating what i always say to you .
I really miss messaging with you all day long ,morning and night messaging .
I really can't help myself from crying when i on my lappy and online msn .
your last words is still there each time i opened your chat box ..

2009-08-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

TIME TO STUDY !
Amaths common test today and i kinda screw up the entire paper because of the first question .*grrrrr* Gonna stop blogging till all examinations are over (prelims ,olvl & end-of-year) just gonna upload pictures for this post .. BORED.

ROSE:D

BIRTHDAY celebraion(: 7august & 9august

2009-07-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

today ,
olvl chinese listening ,
damn the damn radio ,
play such nice song ,
make me sleepy and i am gonna fail(:!
anyway,wont be blogging offen already because of exams , common tests ,class tests ,extra lesson and not much time to rest .
poor thing hor?
Lalas .
But still will blog if got the time ,
dont say never updated uhs!

2009-06-28T00:18:00.000-07:00

:X DEAD BLOG !
reason being : I am too lazy to blog as nothing interesting is happening at the moment .
I am just gonna blog post pictures that were taken during the holidays .
School holidays are ending within 24hour time !
HOMEWORK !
._. I even forgot what homework were given during the holidays .

To my Karice baby,

I LOVE YOU .

My Promise to my baby♥

2009-06-07T09:10:00.000-07:00

._. slept at 4am in the morning !

well ,
today woke up at 11pm and started watching my daily sunday show in net:X
after that received a phone call from valerie saying the person from singapore idol called her to audition today instead of 14june .
SO ,
me pei her go at around 2.30pm
quene up to register first and was totally left alone outside the place while waitting for her !
lalas .
blah blah blah .
around 6plus ,
went in for audition ,
awhile later ....
she came out with THE BLUE FORM !
YOU KNOW BLUE FORM MEANS WHAT ?
SECOND ROUND AUDITION !
anyway ,
she asked me to blog about this ,if not i never intent to blog because i blogged yesterday x) !

2009-06-06T10:04:00.000-07:00

lalas !i know alot of people missing me now x) *thick skin*
Well !you know i know gods know what the hell is going on this few days (:

Today meet up wtih Liuqian darling and Valerie tiongxim at 8plus in the morning
BECAUSE !
Valerie tiongxim is joining singapore idol .
Pei-ed her quene since the time we reach there all the way till 5plus .
._. END UP ,
no chance to audition today .
need wait all the way till 14june .
many many people serious sing veryvery well .
saw many unusal people:3 !
anyway ,we did enjoyed ourselves under the hot HOT sun uhs ,
till i got sun burn -.-
we even bought 5BIG GULPS .
siao rights ?
bo bian luhs .weather hot .cannot blame .
lalas !
time for picture WITH THE NEXT SINGAPORE IDOL:3 !

2009-05-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

Going to MIA from everything for the time being ,
anything ? message my phone (:

Fucking pissoff by the way others is treating me .

I dont think you should be treated this way .
DO I ever throw you one side when i have a boyfriend ?
because of one guy ,
you actually tell me ,
" I also never ask you come find me =/"
Do you like if i say that to you ?
worse of all ,you jiao so much with me .
what the fuck i am to you ?
** KIA .

2009-05-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

Exams had already started for a week already and I am still staring in front of my lappy blogging right now .
When am I gonna start studying hard ?!

Today went out with ROSE YOUNGGGG and my EILEN !
Hehehehe !
went mos buger to study but after sitting there for an hour or so ,
we realise that studying is not allow during weekends :x .
but still ,we bought drinks .
Chase us out = chasing alot people out from the place .
LALAS .
After that went to eat sumo house !
HOHOHO .
^_^ FOOD .
When there is food ,nothing will stop me from flying towards it <3 !
After eatting ,EILEN HAVE TO GO HOME ALREADY T.T
So bobian have to s ay byebye to her T.T
Nothing better to do so went amk hub to shit first before starting photo session .
Rose seriously love taking lots of picture .
During studying plus went eilen was gone T.T

2009-04-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

HAISH HAISH HAISH .
Currently feeling very moody because of something happened today too sudden .
I always though that running away from something I don't want to face was the best but i was wrong .
I hope this time i won't regret the chioce i made .
iloveyou

2009-04-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

GOSH .
It has been like how many days since I last blog again ( using fingers counting)
Time fly real fast alrights .
3weeks since March holiday .
Having extra lesson on monday to wednesday .
._. tiring .
olvls arh olvls .
T________________________________________________________T

By the way ,
played back maple few days back .
Saw quite alot of old friends and maplers<3 !
I missed them so much luhs plus some change alot .

SOMEONE SOMEONE SOMEONE
please please please
help me ):

2009-03-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

This is what had been doing during the holidays ._.
Oh my tian): !
MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE WASTED AND DOWN THE DRAIN !
Don't know why don't feel like blogging unless someone told me to do so .
Din't really did anything much today as for messaging with like this girl who said that I am flirting with her bf when the guy is like my senior ?
Started this dam boliaos sms with her ever since morning 11.50am all the way till like now even when I am blogging ?
Each time i shoot her back her own words ,
she will reply me that I am childish or kiddish .

OMG OMG OMG !
I just realise that a really cute guy I know for so some time actually stay in the same condo as me !
That's all for holidays .

2009-03-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

omg x.x !
so long never blog already :D
though is the marc holiday ,
I am getting super tired everyday ,
but than everyday play ,eat and sleep plus bath<3 !
I WANT TO GO OUT!
I WANT TO GO OUT!
I WANT TO GO OUT!

<3him !

2009-02-28T08:25:00.000-08:00

I am sooooo BORED .......

2009-02-23T05:58:00.000-08:00

Hehe !

Today sooooo happppy because I went out with my Ashley Les<3>

The movie is seriously dam funny and stupid .

*4 out of 5 stars*

After the movie ,

we went Long John for lunch and train-ed to tamp to slack with brandon before heading home around 7 going 8 at night .

Les is super auto when taking my sweets .

if i open to take one out ,

her hand ill be there to grab one too .

D: bad riqhts ?

*agree*

2009-02-19T04:17:00.000-08:00

~~SCHOOLSUCKS~~

During Emaths plus1 lesson today was the best<3
*stress*
O'lvl is starting on1st july (chinese paper)
follow by maths and science .
total amoutn :$180 .
3 subjects already so much ,
6 subjects leh ?
rob bank or old lady ?-.-

After school LiuQian darling come to my house;x
when we alight from he bus ,
I REALISE I FORGET TO TAKE MY CHEMISTRY FILE !
T______________T
So my darling help me called the SBS to check if they found my $7.50 red ring file(-.- ex ok ?)
SBS is so f**king waste phone bills .
one min ask us call east coast bus terminal ,
when we called,
they ask us to call the bus terminal at yck .
wdh .
make me dulan and hungry .
so we went KFC for lunch:DDD
ate 2 chickens part plus cheese fries(: !

hey 'pretty',
do you need me to give you a invitation to ask you to come say the word sorry ?
since you dare to say ,
why not dare to say sorry ?
chances are given to you .
limits .
you're ain't a big **** .
since you hated me so much ,
tell me at my face .

2009-02-15T07:09:00.000-08:00

I AM SO BOREDDDDDDDD .

Rose,
when are you going to go out with gekluo ?D:

Ashley Les ,
when are you going out with me to play lan :P ?

Celia Baobao ,
when are you going to meet up with meeeeeee ?T.T

WeiXiang Didi ,
when are you going out with me ?(dua jie so many times liaos D:)

Jeremy Les ,
when are you going to find me ?(dua me a total of 3times ,i got count ok ?)

KaiChiong Laopo ,
you better meet me ;x I WANT TO SEE HOW 'CHIO' MY LAOPO !

Jeannette ,
can your birthday don't come so early T_T ? my wallet got holes lers .

BORED ......

2009-02-09T04:15:00.000-08:00

sooooooooooooooooooooo boreddddddddddddddddd .

:D I don't know what to blog !
ROSE YOUNG YAN PING ! I LOVE YOUUUUUUU <3
gandong ma ?

if not gandong ,

please face towards to window ,

and jump(: !

2009-02-02T04:26:00.001-08:00

Today is the first time good things happening in the school .
things:
1- First period ain't PE because PE teahcers go for sec3 cmap !(hope they rot there)
2- Bother TCs din't come to school today (1mc and 1camp)
3- last period today was TC period change to go home time:X !

Iamsad
Iambored
Iamemo
Iamtired
Iamlost
Iamstress
Iamgone....

2009-01-31T06:14:00.000-08:00

hate my life .
hate going to school .
hate facing the fact .
hate things that are happening every now and than .
._. what's going on in my life ?

2009-01-25T07:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !;]

:DDDDDDDDD

Hope everyone can eat more ,

get fatter ,

get slimmer;x ,

get more angbo money $$ ,

everything you want also more luhhhhs ._.

2009-01-18T05:07:00.000-08:00

Today I shall blog about how shity will your life be in your secondary school life .

When you first step into the school ....
It will first seem to be great to enter such a beautiful school and people around you were friendly when they were attending you plus you would be thinking that secondary school would be fun with people like this and the nice environment .
But when the first day of school started and everything changes ...
Those people you saw weren't as friendly as you think when you first met them .
Environment ain't as nice as you think .
After knowing all your new classmate and teachers , you would than change your mind set about the school again but still you still had doubts .

A year after your secondary 1 life ,
there's a bond within you and your sec1 class already .
During this year ,you will be concentrating on your cca and studies because sec2 is nothing much at all is just you do well in your studies ,you will be taking a better sudjects during your sec3 life and won't really regreted about the chioce to made back than because onces everything is fix ,nothing can be changed .
Cca is also another important thing in a secondary school as it will help you during you o'lvls examination ,being able to be one of the top position in your cca during sec3 would be great and you will never wish you asked for that .

Finally 2years of study so many subjects ,
it's time for you to know what you are up against .
You maybe a leader of something or ever might be the chairman of your cca or in class !
Who knows?:D
Study hard is the best advise ._.

4TH YEAR !
It's the time to let your hardwork pay off as the time has come to take your o'lvls examination .
Though is during the end of a secondary school holiday and it would seem to be a long time before it come ,but this could be the worse thing you had said to yourself .

another thing .
Not having friends by your side would be also the wrose thing happened to you .
Boot licking would also be a good advise because many people in a secondary school are cunning .
Teachers also .

17JAN2009
Din really did much in the morning because nobody is at home plus mummy and daddy went out eat breakfast without calling me wakeup;[
Around 2plus went to meet up with Richard to go bugis to shop for his clothes;]
Than went to watch movie but there wasn't any show screening at the point of time when we were there so went to j8 to watch Bedtime stories again when i want to watch ponoy !
Stupid Richard): !

2009-01-15T03:07:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL SARKSSSSSSSSS .
*agree shake head*
my bloody timetable better be not the same when I receive tomorrow if not i gonna slap myself ._.
As usual , my dearest english teacher should be now very happy because she had two period with my dearest class today which make me very childish for the first period .
Everyone who is sitting at the back were talking about doing what during their Saturday morning .Wendi started about watching Doremon than I shouted Digmon and Pokemon .
Me and Jonathan started talking everything about pokemon together with everyone sitting around us all the way till lesson started .
One thing will never change ,my teacher always will give spelling and this time is on body parts .
To you ,easy .
To me , -.- prepare to die .
Due to the time ,I actually got time to prepare my cheat notes on my table before she collecting back the paper(:
Next ,She gave us a test to do in order for her to know how much vocabulary is in our brain .
Instead of doing , I was falling asleep all along till she say time's up and copyed linfang's paper .
After the test ,She read to us the book 'What You Did Last Summer' .
So many people want to bring the book home read but she don't let .
What a dumb teacher .

2009-01-09T18:42:00.000-08:00

See those pictures up there ?

That was what my english teacher taugh my class for the first lesson .
Crazy rights ?

Sec4 already still want us do this kind of thing ,thought we are still in primary1 .

She actually made us write plus she going to give us spelling every lesson .
She even said that she love giving her student this kind of things during her lesson .

Past four days wasn't feeling very well so didn't blog .

Tuesday , 6Jan

After school went out with Ely to orchard shopping !

Saw something that I am not suppose to see :x

After lunch went to this super big book store but don't remember the name already .

Searching for 3books ,thick one ok -.- ?

But i kept standing at the children section because the books thinthin word bigbig ones:DDD

Wednesday , 7Jan

Stayed back after school for Sec1 CCA audition .

Onces again ,I took the CCA choir .

The sce1 kept wanted me to sing with them during free time we had ._.

*paiseh*

Since there was nothing to do ,the choir teacher taugh them how to sing the school song .

Tha choir teacher actually taugh them wrongly for some parts of the song .

So paiseh luhhhs -.- when someone sing the school song wrongly .

Another thing ,the chior teacher kept wanting me to join chior -.- ?

Thursday ,8Jan

Super duper bad headache causing me not able to go to school .

Stayed at home whole day and slept almost whole day too .

Also missed the trip to NYP .

During the night ,

chiong my english common test compo(draft)

just in case don't know what to write:D

thanks wenkong for helping with my spellings;x

Friday, 9Jan

Went to NgeeAnn open house after school .

People there were friendly and the food is also very nice ^^

Saw alot of cafe .

Omg !!!

2009-01-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

Today is quite a sad day for me as things that happened today abit unpleasant .

Why must people always tell me ,
"gekluo , you should become more than a senior councillor .why she don't want to promote you instead during that time ?"
Seriously ,I am not trying to shoot/say/talk bad behide anyone .
I don't know .
Few question ,
Don't you think that I am sad enough about this ?
Don't you think that since this matter had already happened going to 1year already ,forgive and forget ,and stop talking about it ?
If you think telling can do me any good ,why don't you speak up for me instead of keep asking the same question over and over again ?
Do you think I am in the position that I was able to speak up for myself at the point of time ?
Can you just let me have the last time to enjoy myself in there instead of being sad always ?
Why when always I was about to forget about the matter ,people always bring it up all over again ?

As always ,school sarks and din really do much today as 2nd day of school .
Going out with Ely tomorrow (: !!

school don't rocks

2009-01-02T06:49:00.000-08:00

First day of school is always the worse day of your school life .
First thing they always do will be ,ATTITIRE CHECK .
Plus stupid new rules ,what cannot and can .
Dam BOLIAOS PLEASE ?
Hope god can bless me alot for this year because my english teacher is no more ms. Gan but ms. Lau .
I realise that the school has alot of unmarried female teachers ,ms. here and there when they look old -.-
I don't know is the school siao or should be dumb , one moment they were scolding this person and the next moment ,treat it like gold .
Somehow going back school wasn't as interesting as the past years .

2008-12-31T07:45:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOOOO PEOPLEEEEEE :D !
din got the time to blog during yesterday because reached home around 11pm in the night and was finding a new blogskin .
By the time I was done with my blogskin , 3am in the morning already -.- *HOLYSHIT !
woke up around 10plus in the morning ,
washed up and headed off to city hall to meet up with Rose to buy my new school bag at bugis !
After that we wanted to buy some stuffs at The Body Shop but than stuffs are way to ex ._.
What Rose did was ,
she went in the shop together with me and both of us was searching high and low for the thing we finding .
When we found what we were finding ,
$_$ 42.90 .
I took one of the bottle and there was a lable there write ,"Try Me" .
I showed it to Rose and she opened ,use it on the spot .
he next thing was both of us walking quickly out of the shop ~_~
What I couldn't believe was she really do what the lable wrote .

50TH POST <3
A total of 50 post for the year 2008 .
2009 .
2more min uhs ?
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE .
2008 FUCK OFF !:D

2008-12-29T06:28:00.000-08:00

Getting more and more tired when the holidays are coming to an end ):
i wonder is it because i am super hyperactive during last few days of holidays as school is going to start on this Friday manxnxnxnxnxnx !

Last Friday went sentosa with Rose, Clement , Arize and Almuf !!!
I was like super childish at the beach luhhhs .
Digger holes with Clement and play with sands .
Around 4plus , it started raining but than stop ,heng uhs ?._.
Around 5plus , Arize and Almuf came ,super late still come -.-
THAN ALMUF DRAG ME TO THE SEA ALL THE WAY FROM THE TOP WHEN I WANTED TO DRY MYSELF .
He seriously got the energy to drag me when I am so fat?!
After that we went cleaning up ourselves and headed of to my mum's stall for dinner<3 !

Today !
Woke up super early just to go school for some sec1 thing again .
I took class 1D and they are seriously super quiet at first .
When the whole thing started ,
I was making a crap out of myself because I was about to fall asleep and trying to zi-high myself .
Playing the bonding games was crap .
I talk you talk finsh = whole thing end when I didn't even said a thing to the class x.x
Splash and Bang was fun when playing together with the class because they started laughing .
After recess was bring the class to tour around the whole school .
Tiring ok?
Bring the class that walks very slowly and need to tell them this and that .
There is this guy from Brenda's class called me dajie and Eunice keep calling me dajie followed by Mengyau THAN THE WHOLE SEC1 PLUS COUNCIL ?
faints*
After the thing end ,went AMK hub to have lunch and follow with a movie .
Watch Bedtime Stories and saw Rose while buying the tickets.
Is seriously very funny and half way the show ,
Maria started laughing alone in the cinima and I started laughing because Maria laughed -.-
Rose even know that it was my laugher ~_~

I know my blog is very lag ._.
I trying asap to fix it -.-
I don't mind if anyong want offer help xD !
But than ,
impossible uhs ?

2008-12-25T06:29:00.000-08:00

2008-12-25T06:08:00.000-08:00

This year Christmas ,instead of rotting at home as usual .
I WENT OUT WITH ROSE YOUNG !
hahas .
meet up with her at city hall mrt and train-ed to bugis !
Ate yoshinoya and headed off shopping at bugis street .
WOAH !
I seriously bought alot of stuffs ._.
spend over $130plus .
bought one new pencil box ,slippers ,clothes and took neoprints too !
After that went to eat pastaminia (don't know how to spell)
totally spoil my mood to eat ok ?
f**king bad appearance of food ,
nevermind ,TASTE ALSO BAD .
WhatTheF*** luhs ,wasted $13 .
after the food ,
rose bring me from B1 to level3 just to go to the toilet -.- ?

Tomorrow there will be a sentosa with some primary6 friends !
OMG !!!
Can't wait for it:x !

2008-12-23T06:53:00.000-08:00

hmmmmm ....
i realise that everyone is enjoying their holiday by working ,going ooverseas ,going out with friends ,gathering ,chanlet ,etc...
-.- but me ,
whole holiday only went out/chanlet/gatheing 7days only .
the rest of the day is at home .
am i wasting my holidays ?
went to meet up with junn bbf and ganstead (: around 6plus .
aiyoooooo .
my BBF super dao towards me lors ]=
i know i buang ,told you i don't want meet le still want meet me if not want disown me .
i very sad de lehh when say dao disown .
first time meeting ganstead is dam funny ,
he is so funny luhhs .

2008-12-19T21:00:00.000-08:00

omg ._. !
I super hate when i wear heels ,the next day ...
LEG PAIN !~_~
yesterday went school for sec1 thingy .
this year there were lesser sec1 ,unbelievable uhs for my school ?
all the new sec1 are so small ,nerd ,guai and attitude .
parents are the same .
talk nicely to them ,
shouted back at me .
dam angry luhs !
Finding someone to help me massage my leg please:X !

going to meet up with eunice and wenwei to go maria's house for council bbq xD !!
and i got a super bad flu !
hope i don't pass to anyone later ><

-.- i am always stupid to believe people .

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS BOYFRIENDS AND FRIENDS .

boyfriends play with your feelings .

friends backstab you when you are not looking .

fun ahs ?

to someone,

think you big fuck ?

like him than go woo him luhs .

no need so disgusting in front of others .

if i really can't take the grossness of this thing ,

see what will happened to both of you .YCUKS !

2008-12-15T07:19:00.000-08:00

Today !
I met a new friend .
Tall (22cm taller~_~),
Speaks chimchim english to me ._. make me cannot understand ,
Keep bully me:x and call me a noob in audition ): ,
but still a nice friend<3 .

My life is getting more and more boring .
Seriously don't know what to do with my free time though i got holiday homework .
From today onwards ,
I am going to be happy everyday and forget about what happened .
There is no such things as friend .
Go reflect before talking to me .
If you think friends is just for you to backstab ,
get a life ok ?
Think before you act .
If you don't know what is going happen next ,
try not to be a hero .
If you think i am the one who do that to you ,
slap me .

2008-12-12T07:27:00.001-08:00

4days no blogging = 4days of no life .

Recently ,
I had been sleeping like a pig the whole day and always wake up at 1pm in the afternoon .
Yesterday ,
I had this very funny dream that make me cried in my dreams when i woke up ,i can't stop crying because of the content of the dream .
It will sound funny if i tell you but than the dream is like an warnning to me >.< I think i shall keep it to myself but if something ever happened ,i really hope that i could help . god bless you my dear friends .
Another thing will happen if you have nothing to do at home : Think alot . Beside chatting in msn playing online games , getting bored of it is common-.-

Few days back ,
I came across something in someone else blog .(no name will be mention)
I can't believe whatever I saw what was writen on the blog .
As i was reading , i started crying because it made me remember about the pain and failure in me .
Will everything go back to the past when everyone love each other and never doubt whatever happened or gets in the way ?
Now ,everything has changed for the best or bad ?
Sometime what others said is also true about what's going on now .
Hais -.- thinking alot now .

Current mood : Feeling to slap someone .

2008-12-08T07:16:00.000-08:00

omg !!!!
i super duper love my new tag board and blog skin<3
today went to meet somebody and when i go out ,
raining -.-
i super lazy to bring a umbrella ,
so i just walk out the house and walked all the way to the mrt ._.
not a joke ok ?
and i got a super bad cold and headache now -.-
today weather is bad till keep raining and during night time, the weather is like the same weather when i was in genting ._.

SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pei me play audition !
i get super bored easily when i am at home or even outside .
FINDING people to bringme go shopping for new year clothes ._.
its actually super unbelievable that my mum asked me to faster buy my new year clothes already -.- ,
if i know my mum well ,she will be like ,
mum: WHAT ?! new clothes ? work and save money buy .

i thought i had found him,

but i was wrong once again .

how stupid am i .

i keep made the same mistake over and over again ,

when than i can learn and change my mistake ?

thanks to those people who tried cheering me up today =]

today i also found one new best friend .

though he is in his 20s ,

he still know what it take to be a friend .

i am touch by his words just now .

T_T *cries

2008-12-07T08:36:00.000-08:00

finally found the time to change my blogskin:D
seriously rotting like hell at home .
so hope someone can pei wo go out D: .
T_______________________________________T

didn't do anything much today as i woke up at 1pm in the afternoon ?._.
woke up by all the messages i recieved
and all the messages i recieved ,
5messages was to ask me wake up zzzz .
so bobian wake up and pei someone chat on phone =]
that's all for now !
i want go back school .
missed everyone <3

2008-12-06T07:27:00.000-08:00

back blogging about what happened for the past few days as someone ask me to update my blog :x

4dec -6.5`2005 class gathering / yoreca friends:D

meet up with friends i met during the camp and went to watch boltz !

the movie is quite funny but is so fake -.-

PLANNED BY ME:D

kinda disppointed about the number of friends attended the gathering ,

sorry to those that i was unable to contact D:

celebrated sylvia(13dec) and bryon(2dec) birthday :D

at my house and had a bbq too !

everyone had changed so much,

example : all grow so tall till i want to cry T_______________T

some of them stayed overnight at my house though my room is small and still ,

:X SQUEEZE !!!!!

the next morning ,

went to mac ate breakfast+lunch and send those stayed overnight to the bus-stop .

omg ,

i am seriously rotting at home .

anyone want to go out ?

but than don't ask me ton ._.

i really cmi tonning with people because i live up for my name :D

PIGG<3

school holidays are also getting to a end soon and ,

time for my sec4 life .

there is still so many things i haven't do finsh yet !

like my homework , buying of book and many many !

2008-11-30T08:15:00.000-08:00

not gonna blog for the next few days or maybe even weeks or months .
who knows ?haha .
suddenly ,
feel like getting worse ,
good to very worse .
hoping my condition will get better soon .
hope so ...

the world is like against me .

stop it please can ?

i seriously cannot take it anymore .

onces is enough ,

second time is way too much for me to take it .

is like out of no where ,

a knife is stab into the heart .

i am human ,

human have emotion , attitude , pride ,etc ..

how will you feel if you are the one in my shoe ?

whatever ,

the maddness never end .

YoReCa CAMP !

2008-11-21T07:10:00.000-08:00

HEYHEYHEY PEOPLE !

i am back from YoReCa camp:D
tell all of you something ,
the camp is seriously super duper fun ok ?
though its call a camp but going there is as if going for a holiday .
sleeping on bed instead of sleeping bag or inside a tent .
bathing in a toilet that got heater instead of campsite only cold water .
HAVING 5 MEALS A DAY INSTEAD OF 3 YOUR KNOW ?(consist of breakfast , lunch , tea break , dinner ,supper )
having field trips insist of exercising .
USING THE INTERNET DURING NIGHT TIME TO BLOG AND FACEBOOK .
high class camp ok ?
everything also free:D
at there ,
1) i met alot of new friends . friends that don't care about how you look or bad you are .
2) i learnt that i must be strong and no matter what happened , i must always be resilient .
3) i learnt things that i don't even know .
4) i discovered that always have faith in people ,no matter what they are or how they are .
5) being the first to experience this kind of camp .

T_T having after camp depression le luhs !

Day 1 ,
reaching there is seriously dam scary
as the only one i know are only yck students .
after filling up some kind of paper ,
the camp finally started and the first thing that came to my mind was ,
"faster end this whole camp and let me go home sleep ."
than ,
all of us were split into different groups T_T
and i was in the same group with mengyau and yuanjie .
THE MOST FUNNY THING IS ,
mengyau was the leader of the group .
after the splitting up of teams ,
we played ice breaker to know each other well .
than is war chant game .
keep shouting luhs ,but still ,main objective : have fun:D
during afternoon ,
visited home team academy .
not su ka su ka can visit de ok ?
cannot say too must things about what i saw inside ,
as they say is not open to the public .
._. bo bian so need to listen lor .
returning back to camp ,
we pranked eunice on phone:X
hot guys uh ?
night time , we need to act out a skit and the having solution about what the other team have acted out .

Day2 ,
breakfast was seriously not my cup of tea T_T feeling dam sad ,
missing my mother's cooking when all of us was having breakfast .
after that listening to lectures from 2 people about Singapore .
i even fall asleep during both lectures .
:3 not bad right ?
after the talk ,
we played key punch ,
a game that every team needed to work together as one in order to achieve a common goal that is LUNCH:D
after lunch ,
went SCDF to listen about talks again(:
but this time ,
the 2 speakers are funny and i kinda make a fool out of myself :x but than still funny .
when the talks were over ,
one by one each team needed to go of some kind of test ,
while the rest went for tea break .
one thing i like about the place : THE FOODS .
the food is like no need to pay money .
so many plus nice .one the way back this time ,we prank hema xD

after dinner was some kind of game ,

is called confident skip .

is that we need to run throught th skipping rope ,

i also learnt that the first level is always the hardest and in our daily life .

the first thing we always do is always the hardest

Day3,
breakfast was much more worse than the day before .
after some kind of talk form SMRT ,we have 2 challenges
the first one was tiring and keep sweat alot plus mosquitoes bite me T_T
the second one was something of wet activity ,
stepping on a rope and swing over to a wooden plank in the middle of the water .
i also make a friend call weng kong aka gay partner(:
keep making each other wet ,when we were going up the water and i was not whole body wet .
he pulled me down the water!!!! cold !!!!!
roars !
i dam dam dam angry and keep bully him:X i very bad rights ?
bathing after lunch and headed off the the last field trip of the whole camp .
went to AMK mrt to attend some kind of training about what to do when we face problems in mrt train .

returning back to the camp again ,

we prank yuying this time round:X

but din really have fun with the prank as she is not so easily to get prank ):

as we were 2hours ahead of the time table ,

we played 2games ,

one is called volly-moon-ball and mega memory .

dinner was next and was the last dinner of the whole camp O_O

ate chicken rice!!!!!!!!

night time ,

we started doing my powerpoint presentation and the dance for the next day !

Day4 ! last day of camp): ,

woke up super late for the last day of the camp ,

after morning exercise was breakfast and i stole one of elson's fishballs:X

blahblahblah .....

durng afternoon was the bext meals i had for the whole camp O_O

CURRY ......

finally ,

time for us to present our dance and everything to the VIPs .

and after that ,

it was the time to leave each .

some of us talked about the camp and i cried .

i will miss everyone too ders !

to someone :

can you please get a life and stop showing your bloddy attituede to me .

act mature ,

stop being childish ,

i can't stand it ok ?

want act ?act in front of me .

don't act big fucks on messages and in msn chats .

i have nothing to hide ,

want talk to me ,

talk nicely .

i am nice to talk anyway as everyone know .

did i shut you off when you talked to me ?

if you like to bitch about people's back .

get a life .

if i seriously see you not happy ,

i had already shouted you at your face instead of keeping my mouth shut and don't want to blow up.

one more time if you do that again when i am not in the mood ,

tell me who's the boss by than .

what a slut ....

2008-11-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

soooooooooooo long never blog about anything lers !

anyone missing me already ?*bhb*

got back my report book on 4th nov and i am going to sec411 throught train (:

so happy !!!

cheerup my friends ):

welcome back my dearest eunice meinu to singapore (3th nov)

and she bought my something from malaysia !!

shall upload the pictures later !

during friday lesson ,

311 got to showcase 2 groups drama to the other express classes.

quite funny luhs:3

the cute thing eunice bought for me(:

during mengyua's birthday !
group photo (:
for fun ?

2008-11-02T07:45:00.000-08:00

currently blogging with one swollen hand but not as swollen like last night .

YESTERDAY , 1st NOV .
it's mengyau's birthday !
meet up with zejia ,elson and shawn lek at plaza sing. before heading forcity hall to meet up with the birthday boy :3
when we reached city hall ,
O_O see no mengyau .
search for around 15mins ,
he suddenly appear out of nowhere ,*scary .
around 7plus at night ,
we went for dinner at UE square and celebrate his birthday too .
this is the first time ,
i see mingyau ate like a pig ,oinks !!!!
while walking out from the toilet ,
the place was bloody dark ,
see no steps .
*FALL .
this is how i got my swollen left hand .
thanks zejia for the dinner treat:X
fan zhen is you own me ders (^(oo)^) truth .
gonna upload pictures during my next post .

TODAY ,
as usual ,
same old thing ,
wake up brush teeth , on laptop , on msn ,cook maggimee and sleep again .

i thought that is the end for us and no more seeing each other .

but even if we saw each other somewhere,

the first thing come to your mind is faster run away ?

that's seriously too stupid ok?

1) i din asked for anything in return .

2) i din forced myself to go somewhere you hang out .

3) how the hell i would know that you will be in the place at such place and time .

4) don't think you are handsome (:

i am feeling lonely .

everyday .

why ?

but somehow ,

i feeling much more happy than before .

hahas .

simply in love with you :3

2008-10-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

YAY !

finally watch HSM3 with someone ! thank huimin:P

after that went home and straight no mood to do anything as i see those stuffs that were on my bed lying around like rubbish .

feel like throwing my whole room and change for a new one :x

today ,

i reflected about what i have done in the past .

right or wrong .

but one question is still remain unknow ,

is this worth doing everythings even when is right or wrong ?

do i gained from i done ?

do i learned something from what i done ?

someone from audition asked me this question .

someone :If i shield the one i love ,will you shield yours ?

someone tell me what would you do if you were me .

answers must be from your heart my dear friends ...

2008-10-24T10:02:00.000-07:00

lately ,

feeling super sad about so many things happened in the past and the present is about my results .

many things equals the things that make me cry .

today ,

luiqian,valerie,guanqing and darren came to my house for swimming .

went to school JUST TO GIVE ONE CAMP FORM and cab to hub to meet up with them .

bused back home and saw luiqian sitting at the swimming pool chair while waiting for us .

swim for around 2hr plus ,all went to bath while i go on swimming with my cousin .

after cleaning up myself ,

i cooked lunch for everyone but when cooked finsh ,

there is not enough rice for every single one .

forget it .

don't talk about this part if not i blow up again .

i hereby going to say that ,

i,lim gek luo is ..

USELESS .

happy enough?

actually today is my tuition teacher past away 4th month ani.

i miss him alot ,

he is the best teacher i ever had .

i will never forget you .

thanks for everything you have taught me for the past 6 years ,

the wisdom you taught me too .

i am sorry about the way i treated you from the starting of this year .

will you forgive me if you are alive?

i am sad.

when you are gone ,

nobody is there to guide me what to do for my life .

i have lost my dreams already ,

why am i lossing you too ?

i don't know what i my goal now .

can you tell me if you are alive?

you are the one that know me the best ,

you are the one who taught me everything .

what i needed most now ?

i already don't know anymore .

there is still so many things i wanted to tell you ,

in fact is the whole tuition group .

remember out "TOHTOH insituition" video ?

you even join in with us to make the video .

but now ,

is in complete forever .

wondering where are you now....

2008-10-22T07:16:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm .

what should i say about my result for EOY?

simple !

kanasai .

seriously ,

this time round ,i did very badly for every single paper .

ii let my teachers down .

hais .

all i can do is to pray god and wait for 4Nov .

my gastric got worse as i started vomiting out my food after my meals .

am i dying ?

thinking way too much-_-

i'm getting more and more sick .

wonder how long will this last .....

hen xin ku .

tomorrow is going to be the last day of school for THE WHOLE YEAR .

but next week onwards and for 3weeks till 14nov ,

need to go school for lesson .

already no chance staying in throught train class le .

go for lesson also got what use ?

still going take all nlvl also not olvl .

everyday ,

stay at home ,

sleep sleep sleep .

there will be a 6.5 class gathering !

i really can' wait for it xDDD

so hope to see every single one of my primary school friends .

i really really really miss them alot ALOT !

my heart is crying out loud inside .

what should i do ?

i have lost the confident in myself .

where is the old me?

what am i doing here?

did god send me down on earth to suffer so much ?

kept wondering is this the end of my dreams ?

at first ,

i can't believe that i could even have such dreams ,

meaning :wishful thinking .

till one day ,

someone tell me that ,

if i wanted something ,i should go for it no matter what stand in my way .

but suddeny something stand in my way and there is no way for me to go forward ,

what should i do ?

cry like a baby ?

scold the person?

sit there is do nothing?

or wait for someone to help me ?

hope that during the 6.5 gathering ,

i can find my old self back .

where nobody doubt about anything i do (:

nobody saying each other .

there is aways fun but no back stabbing .

loving each other just like a family .

thought being in the same class for 2years ,

confirm there is feelings.

2008-10-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

going out soon for my x-ray ): ,super worry .

exams are finally over and tomorrow going take my papers -.-

hope i do well ):

if not all those days i mugged are wasted ._.

hais .

this few days seriously not feeling any better but worse .

everyday feeling super tired and there pain here pain .

maple ....

audition .....

watch pokemon/digimon/others online ....

msn ...

I AM ROTTING !

last saturday went to see another doctor because my pain got serious ,

the doctor told my mum this ,

doctor : 99.99% i confirm your girl is having gastric problems .don't worry too much .

i'm like :-_- confirm bo ?past few months pain till now ,you tell me gastric .

hmmmmm ,

i think i total see 5times doctor about my gastric problem lers .

all different conclusion .

which doctor should i believe ?

later something happened to me how ?

sob*

wish you all the best (:

i am sorry about the way i treated you .

all i wanted was to forget about what had happened between you and me

is that so hard for you to let me do so ?

i don't want such things to happen all over again .

it hurts .

if you really still care about me ,

never ask about the past as it really leave a deep cut .

wondering weather what i have been doing was the right thing for me .

when someone talk about school ,confirm will talk about council

when someone asked if you still together with your boy ,i am sad .

hate my life .

2008-10-13T09:29:00.000-07:00

currently blogging on 14october 12.29 am !!!!!
am leh :x i am feeling not tired at all ,

is it because i slept for 3hours for my afternoon nap ?xD

didn't went school because i don't have any paper for today .

meet up with eunice and elson to study chemistry at AMK library .

but again ,

NO SITS .

sitted like for 1hour ? finally got sits at the cafe but is smll table ,

nevermind ,we studyed anyway(:

elson and eunice kept bully me while study and i took elson's phone because he bully me .

all the way till we walk to wait for the bus:x than i returned him .

went buy food before heading home .

than played computer .

stupid eunice ,

keep say exam mode no more and is holiday mode le .

roars !!!!

make me holiday mode also le ):

bad !!!!!!!!!!!

jiayous people (: chemistry and physics left !

i am still missing you,

kept telling myself that i must forget about you.

its hard you know ?

is easy to forget,

find a new stead ,

am i right and is the reason why you do this .

is easy to fall in love with someone but hard to forget about the love .

i also finally understand what they meant.

2008-10-12T07:43:00.000-07:00

brandon : Don't cry over spilt milk .
i finally understand what i should do now .
(: thank brandon .
i shall upload pictures that were taken during yuying's birthday celebration

glass noddle with fish tom yum soup and this is what glass noddle look like o.o

me and yating:DDD

that's all because most of the pictures is with yuying ): !

2008-10-11T21:46:00.000-07:00

hmmmm ...
kinda moody now and don't feel like talking to anyone .
yesterday went out together with eunice and elson to study for next week exams .
went mac at first but was chase out because lunch time no studying .
than went library hope to find a space but no table -.- selfish bunch of families .
after that went J8 to find presents for Eunice's neighbour because birthday .
and also went NTUC to buy my calculator batt just in case tuesday and wednesday science paper .
than took bus with elson home .

i know that i may not be the best ,

but i always tried my very best to be the best .

just for you .

if you think this is the best for both of us ,

stop hurting me ok ?

i just don't like to be angry for no reason or small little reason .

promise is a promise ,

i do break promises sometime ,

but who break promises that hurt the other one ?

i have given up in you

and don't ever and even think that i will be despo for you

over is over .

thanks for everything and i finally know that i am stupid enough,

to have fallen in love with you.

2008-10-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

Boo !:x

i am back blogging !

just came home from school and went eating breakfast with eunice(:

today geography paper was so kns !
i know how to do but the biggest problem still there ...

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL THE WORD -_-\\

woots !

2more paper manxnxncxnxnxnxxnxn !

AND THERE WILL BE NO MORE EXAM !

but this 2paper must pass will flying colour if not it's the end for me staying in through-train class .

going out soon with zejia and his "gang" to celebrate yuying birthday :D going kbox sing song xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUYING(:

2008-10-07T07:29:00.000-07:00

MUFFY GIRLFRIEND IS LOVED BY GEKLUO BOYFRIEND FOREVER<3

well ,
same old thing if i fall sick ,
rot at home or sleep at home :D
din go to school but early morning so many messages and phone calls .
make me totally fed up and can't have a good sleep .
seriously ,i getting weaker and weaker every since starting of this year .
every month without fail ,
i confirm PLUS 100% won't be in school at least one day .
waiting for 20oct to go for x-ray for my stomach as i have gastric for the past few months .
study A-maths and ss for tomorrow exam .
chatting with my girlfriend now(:
bye people !
JIAYOUS FOR YOUR EXAM !
few more paper !

2008-10-06T07:32:00.000-07:00

hais .
feeling supersupersuper sad now WITH HEADACHE .
morning went school than duty than chemistry than chinese than recess than e-maths than geo than physics than tc than went j8 with maria eat lunch than saw andrew at sport link ? chatted with him .
than went buy something and cab home .
reach home , eat , bath ,chat ,play .
at 5++ pm ,
started study physics ,ss ,chemistry all the way till 10pm .
non-stop ,
FUCKING HEADACHE OF MINE IS MAKING ME DULAN AND NO MOOD TO BLOG .
i blog is because brendon later complain i din update my blog again .
today ,someone left me .
today ,i cheer 2 people up because one got dump and the other one about exam .
today ,i am dam angry about how my friend acted as a senior .(if i am your junior ,i make sure make you LANLAN)
today ,i first time study so long non-stop .
today ,i have a dam bad gastric .
today ,i really hope i love you again .
today .i hope there is no tomorrow .
today ,i hope time will stop now .

2008-10-05T06:50:00.000-07:00

today was totally no life ,

when i woke up form my beauty sleep ,

HEADACHE PLUS FLU .

wanted to go back to sleep but thanks to my wonderful "things" and make me keep stomach ache and cramp ,keep chiong to the toilet -.-

than wait till all the way 3plus in the afternoon than have my lunch and breakfast = lunchfast

watch pokemon while eating my food(:!!!!!!

after food ,went around my condo to see anything nice to see about:x

but so sad ,all girls and went back home .

nothing to do .

oh my tian -.-!

cheerup gekluo(:

than ,laopo online and we started chatting about stupid things and quarrel about stupid things:x

she don't believe that i have broke up with Leslie .

it's the truth .

if you don't believe ,

ask him personally .

nothing to hide de ok?(:

FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE .

PLEASE .

it's painful .

someone understand me please ):

i need someone to be there for me .

2008-10-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

yo people !(:
my day started out with so many noise coming from the living room ,
&^&%*(&)_)*&^%%$#%#$^*
wake me up from my beauty sleep ):
switch on my lappy and surf the net for awhile and went to get ready to go for someone wedding at somewhere near woodlands (:

reached there ,
woots O_O so many people i know but those around my age de ,TOTALLY don't know a single one:D and i was lazy to ever go up to them to say hi(: and they don't bother too .
this was the VERY first time my mum and dad let me drink wine (:
i drank 4-5 cups if i remember and drunk:X
after that ,
i didn't go home thought i was drunk but went to meet up with my gan meimei at causeway point to walkwalk around the area and went to amk to eat mac !
after that ,we bus-ed to tampinse to send her home and meet up with my bendan(:
when we reached there ,bendan was still at home and taking his own sweet time to take a bus come find us ._. PIG BENDAN
while waitting for bendan to come ,we went to the walking around and than to the mrt to wait for bendan .
after sending meimei go home ,
i went to bendan's condo cause i really drunk and tired!
MAN !
it's SO BIG MAN !
*jealous*
pei bendan all the way till night and took a cab home .
<3 O4/1O/O8 , woaini .

2008-10-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

so busy with exam this few days and ended up with no time to blog anymore .
mugging everyday like crazy !
today was english paper1 and 2 . paper1 was so hard till i almost give up on the paper , but still , i did not:D
after the break , paper2 and grammer paper , first , grammer paper was kns @#$%^&*. first 10 question don't know how to do but last 10 question know how to do . -.-
after that ,paper2 . when i read the first 5words of the passage , 6words came to my mind straight , I DON'T UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD .
now is my turn to pray god to pass my english paper -.- i think my school is the most unprepared school . at first write on the paper 150 words , than change to 130words THAN AGAIN CHANGE TO 150WORDS AGAIN . when almost the whole class change their summary whenwe were told about the change in word limit . but the both time , i didn't even bother about it and went to sleep . rofl . 25mins of sleep out of 1hour 55mins of paper (1Omin was because of last mintue change of word limit again)
after the paper , went to check my english CA2 marks . guess what . i was absent for so many times and my teacher give me a 0marks when i got a MC . wdf man and i got 37 for ca2 . will i pass overall ? if i am a god , i can pass ,100 marks also no problem .
after that ,went J8 for lunch with eunice and ate yoshinoya:D went slacking around in J8 walking shop to shop .
FIRST stop !
toilet (: and took pictures xD ,shall upload one .

enough of the toilet althought the toilet smell quite nice !
next ,
WINDOW SHOPPING .
awhile later ,
guess what , saw zejia and his*gang* at a music shop .
stupid zejia and them !
keep say me block people way ):
that's all for now .

if it never happened ,
tomorrow will be the day .
if you think it's better for me and you to be just friends .
i will respect your decision .
why must you doubt me once again ?
should i feel bad or feel good about it ?
do you love me from the start ?
which 'i love you' from you was truth ?
why must you break your promise ?
why must you lie to me ?
why must all this thing happened to me ?
why you wasn't there for me when i needed you the most ?
8question of unanswer question ,
do you wish to answer me ?

2008-09-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

there is something i really feel like just shouting OUT LOUD !
I AM SO HAPPY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE IN SCHOOL .
today i went school without my badge or tie:D
having chinese paper 1 & 2 today .
paper one was kinda funny as i don't even know what writing and it sounded really funny .
someone in my class writed this for his letter writing .

the friend name ,
How are you ?
my name .

when i saw his paper while i collect for ms teo ,i almost laugh out very loud .

during the 1hour break,
brenda told my that council have a new rule .
"Councillors cannot do their duty without their badge or tie."
haha .
i don't think this will affect me ?
if next week i do my duty during the morning and if she ask me stop during duty because i don't have my badge ,i am going to tell her do the duty herself (:
try being in my shoe for once ,
what happened ever since that "FRIDAY"(this cause a very deep cut in my heart)
and things that happening now and than .
can you take it ?
i know you guys tell me don't listened to how others think about and feel .
but ,
can you take it yourself if you were me ?
as i had said ,
i seriously cannot take this anymore :D

after paper2 .
when to settled my subjects with my Tcs and had a very nice conversation with Mr Lim (VP) .
took me about 1hour to settled .
hate my POA teacher ._. and Eunice pei-ed me:D
luiqian and valerie went to my house to study after sending huishi and eunice to the mrt .
at my house ,
we lock valerie outside my house when luiqian told her to go out and i locked my front door:X
guess how she came in the house again ?
SHE CLIMBED INTO MY HOUSE FROM THE BACK .
we study a-maths and around 7plus ,i send them to mrt and bus-stop .
that's all for now(:

2008-09-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

nothing much to blog about today and so decided to put some pictures i found in my box .pictures that cheer me up but not those that don't :X

appreciation day'05 from sylvia:D

from eunice(:

from maria THE GREAT and fatty huishi xD

2008-09-26T22:08:00.000-07:00

don't know why don't feel like bloging before the exam .
is it because of stress?
maybe i shall blog as and when i feel like .
sometime mugging like crazy till i forgot what i have study .

grrrr .

i still feel sad man !

2008-09-24T01:18:00.000-07:00

summary for today : sad day .
almost late for duty today but still make it .
first period ,Chinese .do newspaper reflection .
cme ,watch THE ISLAND .
recess :D FRIED FOOD DAY .
after recess was two period of free period cause drama teacher din come .
Emo for the whole two period -.-
next was amaths ,same room ._.
finally ,last period ,chemistry .

i have enough of EVERYTHING ever since ...
what some people told me :

lpp asked why my badge was different from the others councillor .someone answer :"yin wei ta fei wu ma" .i remain silent .
one of my senior said this :" see ! the badge so ugly !" .
ex-classmate:"aiyo ,no rank don't come here ".
someone:"gekluo ,be a man ,admit that you have no leadership quality that is why you can't be a director ."
classmate : "you not director meh ?"
someone :" i give my position to you la ."

should i quit because of this or not ?

i can't stand all this things .

what should i do ?

can someone tell mi ?

current state of mind :confuse .

i hate him .

2008-09-23T05:49:00.001-07:00

currently studying for my coming thurday common test ,
din go school today because of my gastric again -.-
this sucks ): keep gastric .
when amk hub nearby to see doctor .

emo whole day inside my room .
hais ....
HAIS ....

2008-09-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

gonna start blogging everyday juz for Brandon because he complained my blog is not updated everytime when he come visit, plus is everyday -.-
today started out "cold" as i saw something in the office make mi .....nothing to say.
chemistry sarks as the whole dam 2period ,ii rotted in class .
Chinese was fun because of the word teacher write on the board and precella started using those words to form alot of stupid stuffs .funny:X

woot !
finally i got my pink ic:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
the only person ii will haolian to is ...wenwei .

sometimes in life ,
we may face some problems .
Going through thick and thin together with your family or even your friends , classmate nor people around your group age .
but what if friends ,
always say i will help you if you wan etc . ,
but they think about how the opposite will feel if they help you .
is this call friends ?
just get this straight ,
i donwan the position ,
i donwan the power .
all i wanted is same as you .
recognize thats all .
is that so hard ?
seeing you all recieving your badge with a happy face ,
but i am not .

2008-09-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

this few day is so busy till ii have no time for blogging .
friday -investiture ,
saturday -laobu day .
today -mugging day cos for examinations coming soon .

liuqian darling is on her way to my house to study for today:D
ii shall stop blogging for now ,if not she gonna skin mi alive and bbq T_T

2008-09-18T02:41:00.000-07:00

i seriously don't know the purpose of living .
someone tell mi can ?
is life suppose to be getting insult from others or saddness ?
hate my frktard life ...

2008-09-13T09:07:00.000-07:00

todae hear a beri shocking news from eunice .
rest in peace kaiwee.
although dun really know him because during drama lesson also din tok to him bef0re .

2008-09-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

every thursdae is the same .....
FIRST PERIOD .
common test -_- .
chinese teacher din come f0r the past few weeks ~causing us kn0wing n0thing and went for common test .
afternoon ,eunice came mine house to study emaths and ask miie to help her .at zhunzhun 5PM ,she auto go on the tv to watch her donno whad show @ chn U .watch all the way till 7pm and headed off for my tuition .
tuition lesson was abit sian todae cos al0t ppl out of no where -_- .
if it is shuaiges ,ii dun mind habing alot ppl :P
but all chabor ,chi chat with them :X
shall stop blogging for now .
NITENITE PEOPLE .

2008-09-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

it has been such a long time since ii last blog .
as usual ,my tagboard hab been spam by donno which boliaos person who has n0thing better to do(:
todae in school start well ....
n0thing much happened .
AIYA !
ii donno whad to blog lers .
I LOVE YOU ALL (:

2008-08-17T06:25:00.000-07:00

ever since my birthday ,
each day is like so suay to mi ._.
there blueblack ,here blueblack -.-
the worse thing now is my poor right leg !
during wed after amaths ,
saw yuher on the way to the next lesson .
wanted to piak him at his back .
but instead ,
ii twisted mine leg ,zzzzz .
-.- now my poor right leg is "outstanding" .
mine cough and flu ,
3weeks lers ,still haben recover .
poor gekluo .

2008-08-12T06:14:00.000-07:00

4daes of holidaes juz ended .
back to school .
nothing special happened todae .

to the person who spamed my tag board :
dunch be so lame luhs .wan spam jiu put own name , dunch so bo liaos .Only know how to put all my links fwens name .out of name just now when spaming rite?so be smarter next time .know more about me before spaming .never learn spamming jiu wan spam le .wun paiseh when donno how to spam meh ?or isit too think skin ?

2008-08-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

just came back form chamber after peii-ing joyce laopo and thomas zak and tio helm:D
todae don't really hab the mood to do anyting cause ii feel sick .
wake up super late todae .
btw ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAE GUANQING .
ii am good okiies (:?

2008-08-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

9 august 2008 ,
finally this dae have come and ended 1hour ago .
waking up ,ii played my computer awhile .
after that , ii went to meet maria ,eunice and joyce laopo to take guanqing's cake and buying my birthdae present .
but ended up maria and eunice going j8 buy eunice new pair of shoe .
laopo buy miie a super duper cute rabbit for mi .
thax laopo !
<3

when wenwei and some left ,
the rest of us ,
one by one was throw down into the pool ._.
someting happened .... dunch wan to sae .
slowly ,one by one left home .
ii kiss thomas as promise on fone (: before he go home with laopo .and kissed laopo before letting her go home xD .
kinda love my birthdae tis year ,
thanks all my fwens who pei wo todae (:
ii LOVE all the present you gib miie(:

Thanks ,
zejia - your can "peepee" de ting xD .
jasmine - the wallet ! gekluo will use it when go to shcool from next week onwards .
joyce laopo and thomas - for tat cutecute rabbit (:
eunice`maria`wenwei`sarah`kumar`neelesh`fadzhana`jonathan`brenda`huishi- thax for tat SUPER DUPER BIG ZHUZHU !
jeannette ,liuqian,valerie,huishi - the super duper small and cute bearbear .
brenda - the chocolate (:
huanlin- the cutecute bearbear .
fadzhana - the wallet(: !
eesiew - the super look like melvin or bull dog:X
michelle - the BIG box and the small little keychain .
jingsiang - the ting can make gekluo destress (:
sylvia - the cup you gave miie (: gekluo will always use it !
and the last thing ,
THANK FOR MAKING MY ROOM SUPER MESSY AND MAKE MI CLEAN UP._.

ii really want you talk to mii again ,
ii really want to see you one more time ,
ii really want you back ,
ii really want you pei mi for my birthday ,
ii really want you be by my side ,
ii really want your forever don't leave mi again .
and , ii really want you love mi again D:

2008-08-08T03:33:00.000-07:00

woke up super early for school todae because of recollection .
reached school around 6.55am sharp .
and ii gort mine 2nd year of shock again ,juz like last year .
thax all councillors that bought for miie tat zhuzhu toytoy for mi !love you all lots !
after tat was recollection and singing of national day songs .
someting super "outstanding" happened .
ii was the onli one tat wear green standing in the first row ,while the rest are in red -.-
thax god ,tat WAS really outstanding as alot ppl keep looking at mi when ii sae for the recollection and singing the songs ._.
around 1O plus ,we left school to join hands for the connect singapore .
the weather is super duper hot and we still need to stand there !~!
finally when the whole ting over .
find eunice and maria went amk hub food court for lunch .
after lunch ,
we went round searching clothes for mi to wear for my birthdae tmr .
seriously ,
ii hate shopping !~
and first time in my life ,
ii shopping non stop for 4hours (2nd achivement:D).
after shopping ,went mac to slack awhile before heading home !
ii buy a new belt ,shirt and something luh (dunno how to spell:X)

Happy Birthday Zhou ZeJia ,hope you like the thing ely and i gib you .

Happy Birthday Lynn ,stay pretty .Don't be more and more auntie ahs:X .

grr ...
can't wait for tmr man !

2008-08-07T08:12:00.000-07:00

getting more and more tired plus busy as daes go by ,
and wonder ,
when will all this stop ?
ii want the answer ....

todae ,
first was amaths common test .
-.- wait for my result .
during tc period ,
went to the flag pole to perpare for the recollection for tmr morning .
am ii so unlucky?
stand in front still nid wear red pe shirt when ii din even hab -.- .
cor kumar and he is gonna lend mi his pe shirt tmr .
after school went kfc together with ely for lunch .
she told mi.
ely: you know when was the last time i ate kfc ?
miie: when?
ely: 6months ago
(wdf -.-)
if ii can tahan nort eatting kfc for 6months .
6months ltr ,
you can see the sexy part of mi if ii dunch eat kfc for 6months:X
after eatting ,meet up wib miaoyin and went amk hub to buy zejia one super ghey birthdae present as promise <3 :D

juz came back home from tuition was super tired because throughout the whole lesson , all ii reply my tuition teacher was , "huh ?" rofls:X .

2008-08-06T02:54:00.000-07:00

school started out quite stupid for todae as ii got a super bad flu,cough and headache last nite before going to bed .
almost late for duty todae by 1min ._.
during drama period ,we were told to come up with a short play and present it to the class .the whole class took our own sweet time to come up with the play till finally the teacher give up seeing one by one and ask us to present to the class .first up was centaine's group ,it was super funny if you are there seeing whad they are doing and make the teacher waited whad he wanted to see from them .hahas .
next was amaths ,
bad news : tmr common test for amaths ,
good news :tmr common test got come out the same question for the paper mr kumar gib us:D
hongkai teach mi during amaths lesson about whads common test tmr !
if ii pass ,ii gonna treat him lunch !
last period ,CHEMISTRY !
gort back common test todae .
guess whad :X ii gort 12/2O and win zejia !!!
zejia ,gekluo wants her lunch treat ahs:X .(waitting)

after school went amk hub and wanted to choose a birthdae cake for guanqing .
but end up -.- he need to stay back for test ,so went amk hub with miaoyin and meet him up ltr(:
we ate lunch at mac .
the gang join us when they reach amk hub ,
eatting finsh ... :X we sit at there and chat about someting .(sercert)
after tat we went break talk to choose guanqing's birthdae cake :D

finally ,ii am back home .
and ii need my bed right now badly ...
mine headache is back plus cough plus flu .

2008-08-05T05:04:00.000-07:00

Seriously ,
ii hate morning lesson ._.
if it's afternoon start school ,
I DON'T MIND AT ALL !!!
school started out pissing off before starting pe lesson .
pe ,full of crap -.- onli dance dance dance .
after pe was hum ,
again , ii din study for my plus-1 test and slept during the 3Omins .
hahas ,but someone woke mi up 5mins early before time up .
$%#$%# another jonathan .
blah blah blah ..RECESS OVER .
the best part of the dae is this ,ii am gonna rot during the next two period , ENGLISH .
english alot of tings happened luhs .tupid zejia dunch BELIEVE gekluo can loss weight D:
physics ,for the first time in class ,ii din talk to anybody o.o (achivement:D)

after school stay back for (N)T science .
all along ,ii keep chatting together with the sec2 councillors when all the teachers inside the hall listening to other school teacher talk .all of the sec2 councillor dam cute luhs:X !
*jealous*
after tat around 4.3O ,time to eat .hohoho .
but instead of eatting -.- ,nid to run to every floor every room to pass paper to the presenters .
went back hall after running,
ALL NICENICE FOOD GONE DDD:
T_T
but instead ,alot of bao(s) were left there .
all ii don't like .
at 6.3O ,walk together with iky to the mrt station to take bus home:D
feeling super tired now and every part of my body is aching .

ZHOU ZEJIA ,
let gekluo tell you tis .stop seeing mi super small anymore !ii can do big tings ders hor :X .
example of one ting ii can be pro in :D - singlish ^^ .

saddest thing of the dae ,
ii failed my e-maths common test by1 mark T_T

2008-08-04T04:29:00.000-07:00

it was since 1year ago ever since ii last blog?:x
found a new blogskin with the help of baby .
click few time jiu find the page , mi click so many times -.- find nothing ,lols .
todae in school nothing much happened ,scolding plusplusplus craping the whole time(: .
first 2period -.- ,
rotting lesson ,chemistry .
hum test ! din study ._. and write crap for the whole paper:D hope can get at least juz past:X
keep wanting to sleep during physics lesson but jonathan keep poke mi and ask wo don't sleep -_-!!!
%$%^& (wasted 55mins of sleeping) !